I consider myself to be an ambivert. I think everyone in my family is an ambivert. We have this ability to create a balance between social life and private life.

On many occasions, we would like to get some bottles of alcohol and chill at home. Get wasted and just enjoy each others company. Then on a random day, we'd just go out to see how the rest of the world has a good time.

Most times when I'm away from my family creating this balance can be tough, so I stick to just staying home and enjoying my own company or going over to my friend's house and enjoying their company. I hardly find the energy to meet new people. It comes with too much pretence on my part.

My friends are just like me. As much as we know we're the life of a party when we step out, we love our indoor time together. It saves money, time and energy.

Recently, I've been trying to make a conscious effort to have an outdoor life. I've made arrangements to go out with my colleagues at my French school but sadly none of them has pulled through.

I find myself stuck between trying to fuel this part of me and just letting it stay in its cave. Then there's work.
The last 2 months were not so awesome for me financially. May was really low as I began my French course, and then June just followed through after my brother's wedding.

Within those two months, I made almost no money from my freelance writing. One of my clients went on a break and the other didn't have many jobs to give.

Now, we're in July and although my major client is still trying to get back on his feet after his break, my second client has been on steroids.

This weekend I've had to complete articles of 7,500 words altogether. My fingers hurt like crazy but the money has to be made. 5,000 done 2,500 to go.

With this sort of work hanging over my head, my health taking many twists and turns, an outdoor life feels like a chore.

I sometimes feel like I let myself get robbed. Although I've never been an active outdoor person, I feel like I robbed myself of many experiences that probably would have made me a smarter person.

I'm still 23 though, no pressure. I have enough time to make many mistakes and not look entirely stupid. At least that's what I tell myself.

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