Child raising is one thing I always think and worry about. It entails so much that I don't know if I'll be ready for anytime soon. Not just the financial aspects, but the entire need assessment and provision. Haven been subjected to my nephews for the last couple of months; dealing with their educational needs, financial needs, emotional and psychological needs, I'm constantly blown away and overwhelmed at how much is involved in making a human somewhat complete.

My nephews are being raised by a single mother, my brother's ex-wife, and you'd wonder how I'm living with her while she's divorced from my brother. It's a strange story I'll save for another day.

As much as I feel like these kids are having a normal childhood, some days they just ask random questions about events that lead to the current divorce and I feel the air get cold around me. I can't explain to them completely, but in my way, I show them that everything will be okay.

On some occasions, I feel like their mother isn't doing enough. I feel like she can do more, especially with the education of her first child but on other days when I access her life and her bills, I realize I'm being too hard on her.

Being a single parent is not easy. Our gender-sensitive world has a right to be gender-sensitive. We can't deny that although one individual can perform both seemingly masculine and feminine tasks, there will always be lapses.

Performing her role as a provider, I watch her go through terrible situations just to make sure all their needs are met. She handles feeding, tuition and every random expense that comes with raising children.

You'd think it's just about coughing up funds if you have it, but many decisions have to be made before these funds are disbursed.

On a particular week, she left me to take care of the boys as well as the 2 teenage girls who live with her and it was horrible. I had a card with enough money but I was stuck between many decisions.

Running a home, regardless of how much money is available is a chore. And because I'm a very meticulous person, I can't spend carelessly.

Then other needs have to be met. One of the boys has school issues and he requires patience. She barely has the time and I get upset with her. Sometimes I understand that she just needs a break from everything, but I feel she could try harder.

I've spent time teaching him and it is hard work. How much can she do?

Then there's the emotional, psychological and mental aspect of these kids I can't begin to write about. They require so much.

Finally, the financial aspect of maintenance. The plumbing in the house went bad and she has to take care of it, electricity is down, she's spending, something gets bad and she's fixing.

She has to be everywhere all at once and it gets exhausting.

I feel bad for being hard on her sometimes, and when I analyse everything it is too much work for even a couple.

I'm not ready for such a task. I've always had the dream of being a single mother but experiencing what it involves makes me think I might need more support than I let myself believe.

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