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Just a moment to reflect

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Uncertainties make me very uncomfortable. I understand that I'm not the master of the universe but acting it out tends to be a problem for me. I've been getting the reminders more often these days, and I don't know how to respond.

Whenever I make a plan, life tends to shit on it and everything I fantasize about usually doesn't come into being. Take the crypto market for example that just decided to go down the toilet. I can't make any sense of the situation and quite frankly, I don't even think I'm ready for it. All I know is that it sucks and I'm bleeding cash that I don't even have every day.

As if the uncertainties in the crypto market weren't enough, I also have my school that keeps postponing my project defence date. There's an air of uncertainty hovering over the course work because school is shut down, so I understand their issue a little bit.

I had to tell my mum that I won't be coming to visit this month again, and that would mean that I've been away from home for over a year. I miss home a bit more than I would like to admit, and so this really hit hard.

I've not been working as hard as I use to, and it is telling on me financially. I'll go back to spending the entire day on my laptop and just making something positive out of it.