A New Beginning
I Am Valuable.
I have been fighting for a long period of time. Different types of fights and battles, but I've been in constant "fight mode" for such a long time so I can barely remember how it feels to wake up without anxiety, without pain and fears and without being sick to my stomach. I have fought my inner demons. I have fought for my rights. I have never given up, even though I many, many times have felt that the best thing to do would've been to buy a rope so I could hang myself. That would've given me a break.
Different rules, laws and regulations in Sweden basically brought me down on my knees. I was half-buried and in a never-ending shitstorm for a very long time, but I never gave up. I continued to fight for as long as I could clench my fists. As long as I could move and for as long as I could fill my lungs with oxygen, I would never give up. That is something I promised myself several years ago.
I suffer from mental illness, but I am not my illness. I am sick, but I am not the disease I suffer from. I am like many other people, but I am also different compared to some. When it's dark for some, it's often pitch-black for me, but I always move forward. Even when I walk backwards.
During the last few months I chose to focus on my studies more than anything else. I am literally a "straight A" student nowadays. Not because I am the typical "nerd" or "bookworm" that studies 24/7, but because I am interested and I seek answers. I want to learn and I work hard to achieve my goal in life. I want to help others and I strive towards that goal.
A Steemian Since 2016.
Steem has given me a lot. I have met some amazing people and even though I haven't always been satisfied with the direction of Steem, I have always been able to interact with others and I have been able to talk with many of my "online friends".
Something I, with time, basically had to force myself to truly understand and accept, was the fact that Steem is and has been a sinking ship for a long period of time. Perhaps from the very first day of its existence.
The value of our beloved tokens could obviously function as proof of that, but I am not talking about the value of Steem, as a token. I am talking about the value of Steem for its users. The true value of Steem.
Steem is home. Steem is family. We are clearly a dysfunctional family with a wide range of different issues, but most families have issues in one way or another... The important part is that we care about each other.
It's not a secret that Steem has suffered a lot from poor leadership and bad decisions. Steem is driven and controlled by money, and being wealthy is not the same as being a good leader. We have several real life examples of that. Think of Trump as one. He might be one helluva businessman, but he is definitely not the definition of a good leader.
It was easier to promote Steem and do wonderful things with- and for Steem during the highs. We have many examples of that too. Ned, The scammer-chick and a bunch of other random people who "gave 100%" to hand out flyers and whatever to promote Steem in their countries. We have seen billboards and giveaways of various merchandise with Steem logos...
- Nothing worked.
The majority of the Facebook, Instagram or Twitter users have never heard of Steem... And they never will, if the existing users continues to promote Steem in the same fashion as before. It doesn't matter how many times you try if you don't do things differently. The results will be the same.
Steem will never "blow up" and reach millions of active users if we don't change, and the only real change I have seen since 2016, is the actual mindset of people. People are sadly more selfish nowadays.
The quantity seems to be more important than the quality. People doesn't seem to think long term anymore, and truth to be told, why should they?
The value is on what it seems to be a never-ending decline, many of the top earners are frequently cashing out while they tell others to invest.
- In a nutshell, Steem reeks of hypocrisy and bullshit.
I honestly think that Steem would've been better with one person to rule it all. There's "too many cooks in the kitchen", and the result is a bad flavoured Steem-soup.
Steem is sick and the existing users are supposed to be the cure. Steem is half-buried. Who will save Steem if not the existing users?
A New Beginning.
I have recently powered up ~1700 Steem. It's not much, and it won't change a single thing. In fact, the price dropped even more since I bought it...
Do we honestly think that Steem will survive because Steem is being bought and powered up? - It will only add to the current problems we have.
I like #spud and I love the intention with #newsteem and all of these things, but I truly doubt that any of that will actually change Steem.
The true powers with Steem is the users, but people usually ignore lesser accounts because they believe that wealth is the key... But that ship has sailed.
It didn't work with Ned and his millions of Steem he had earlier, so why on earth would it work with 100K, 200K or 500K Steem Power? - It won't.
I would rather have someone with 1000 Steem Power, who earned everything from scratch, to rule everything. That user could easily relate to lesser accounts, he would be able to identify problems "wealthier" accounts doesn't seem to understand, and that user would ultimately be able to bring in more users too.
We failed when we allowed bullshit "internet marketers" or "YouTubers" to spread lies and false information across the world. We failed when we allowed the same people to sell Steem courses, ebooks and "how to"-guides. We failed, but no one seems to admit it.
We need to admit our failures before we can adapt and conquer. We can blame Steem or the hardforks for all the bad things we've seen, but we are our biggest problem. We need to change our behaviour, our priorities and our mindsets. That is how we eventually will flourish.
